The Voice

There's this voice that's calling out to me

He's calling for me

He's reaching for me

He's ready for me

And, anxiously, he's blindly searching for me

He's waiting for me

He's urging for me

He thinks it's me he's seeing

He thinks it's me he's wanting

He thinks it's me he's feeling

What can he really be thinking?

These thoughts are deeply sinking

My mind is wildly blowing

His actions purely showing

And he just keeps on going

My eyes are slowly lowering

To match this voice that's longing

How can he pretend to knowing

The person that he's longing?

My thoughts continue wandering

My mind continues zoning

He thinks his heart is choosing

But my heart is steady cruising

The answers I am seeking

To this presence

It's confusing

Cruise

His voice tingles my spine
To the very core, he blows my mind
Thoughts of him cruise my mind
I'm racing towards the finish line
His voice, soft and smooth
I find my pleasures soothed
And my juices move...downstream
Along with this cruise
Still racing. High speed.
No way I can lose
His voice, low and subtle
His voice cuddles around my ears
His sound tuggles and clears
My eyes follow his HARMONY
His SYMPHONY
His RAPHSODY
His song can't go wrong
His lyrics ever-long
His rhythm so strong
Rolling with the waves of this cruise
I continue racing, pacing to the groove
Turn up the speed. Full throttle
His voice takes lead and I follow
Clear across the finish line
His raphsody intertwined
Victory ever-mine

ENOUGH!

It's time to get down to the core of things
Quite frankly, I am tired of the
Headache and heartache this relationship brings
I give my all when you don't even
Want to meet me halfway
And, it's actually pretty sad when...
Instead of crying, I sulk and cry everyday
Some people say love hurts
Others say love is free
I fell for you, preparing myself for the
Pain love is supposed to bring...
But I drowned myself in hopes and dreams
That our love will be fortunate to be free...
Yet, all I get is emotional pain and suffering
I was sure I knew what I wanted,
But this is not it
Unfaithfulness
Lies
Deceit
Manipulation
Betrayal...
I so did not sign up for this shit
Neglect
Pain
Cries
Migraines
Heartaches...
If this is what love entails,
Love is such a BITCH!
And, why does your "love"
Screw me over fast and quick
Just like your dick,
When all it can handle is a 2-minute hit?
Now, that part I did not see in the contract
People want to dance around
And make love sound real good
But they don't want to own up to the facts
Or...maybe it's just that I've been
Playing in the wrong act,
And it's hard to get back on the right track
So I'm stuck, looking at your ass crack
Man, this shit is WHACK!
"Love is blind." That statement is so true
You running 'round the streets, being a hoe...
Meanwhile, I'm sticking to my word
Remaining true and loyal to you
And I can't even get a "THANK YOU"
How about "I APPRECIATE YOU"
And all that you do?
I have grown sick and tired of you
Yet, I continue to submit to you
Thinking I can change you
But I am left with your bullshit residue
Oh, that's it. Final straw
I am threw with you
Go on back to your slut of a girlfriend
If you want to
Take a good long look at this ass
Because it is the last time you will
See, feel, or kiss it
I know you're going to miss it
Next time you look up
Someone else will be hittin it
Pretty frustrating, isn't it?
Makes you furious, doesn't it?
Welcome to my world
Now you get to swim around
In your own bullshit
I hope you enjoy disappointmen
Today, I am taking off and leaving you behind
You go your way, and I'll go mine
You do your thing, and I'll do mine
And, don't expect me to come back this time
This is the end of the line
You're out of time
My heart has chosen,
And I have made up my mind
This is my goodbye
My love will be gone
When you open your eyes

PAUSE!

PAUSE...
My love has been put on pause
I can't seem to make it across
This deadly trap I own
I can't seem to escape it,
So it has become my own...
My own personal curse
It can make a change
For better or for worse
It defines everything you're worth
Like a defect in a pure birth

PAUSE...
My love has been put on pause
I can't seem to make it across
This deadly trap I own
I can't seem to escape it,
So it has become my own...
My personal death wish
Deadly, like a vampire's kiss
I strive for the soul,
But I miss
I shoot for the heart, and miss

PAUSE...
My love has been put on pause
I can't seem to make it across
This deadly trap I own
I can't seem to escape it,
So it has become my own
I am a prisoner of this deadly trap
It's constantly holding me back
Every time I try to rise
Eevry time I try to fly
My strength sends a cry
Linked to a million lies

PAUSE...
My love has been put on pause
I can't seem to make it across
This deadly trap I own
I can't seem to escape it,
So it has become my own
But I just want to be free
From this trap that's owning me
My heart can't take no more
It's weakened by the sores
Of manipulation, deceit, and lies
Painful cries

Oh, how my heart dries
Drained of the jusices
That's needed to keep it flowing
Sucked of the life
That's needed to keep it going
EMOTIONALLY
Robbed of it's freedom to BE
All out of water and oils,
So just let it bleed
Until the day comes when
It's able to breathe
Until the time comes when
It feels serenity
Until the moment it is
Deemed FREE

And...until that moment
Allows me to cross...
My love is put on pause

SEX APPEAL

Thin
Dark
and Fine
On her way to the
Finish Line
Lips hold a glossy shine
She's in search of
True LOVE'S DEVINE
Her body so slender
Breasts small...perky
And tender
Vulnerable, yes...
But she's no pretender
For, her MISSION alone
Will make a man Capture or Surrender
Her hips...small and subtle
Looking at her makes you want to cuddle
Between the sheets
But, step to her wrong,
And you will witness DEFEAT
Her eyes draws you
and Locks you in
You want to be near her
You want to feel her RICH skin
She smiles an IRRESISTABLE smile
And winks at you seductively
You wrestle playfully...
But you better pick and choose
Your battles carefully
This journey you are about to take
Is a one-way street, and
Leads to a dead-end
There is no escaping
One your in, you're in
She's got you where she wants you
You are not her victim
Victimized by her sex appeal
What you thought was real
Was just an illusion
Now she's about to give you
The real deal
The final chapter of her conclusion
And, just so there is no confusion
This is reality;
Not a dream or dillusion

Mother

MOTHER,
You are my strength when I am weak
You are my vision when I cannot see
You are my right when I am wrong
You are my melody and my bedtime song
You are my courage when I feel afraid
You are my calm when I feel rage
You are my silk and my satin
You are my diamond and my platinum
You are my star on a dark and stormy night
You are my path on a long, dark road through the night

MOTHER,
When I am in need, you come to me
Through trials and tribulations, you're there for me
My #1 supporter. My friend; never my enemy
And I cherish you and your love for eternity
Through obsticles and struggles,
And the struggles are never long
Because you are there to guide me on the right path
And I never travel my journeys alone
Through heartbreaks and heartaches
You're there with the alcohol and band aids
To heal my wounds and wipe my tears
Your love for me is undying
And the reason is crystal clear

Through This Pen

Through this pen all hell is unleashed
Through this pen, confessions revealed
Through this pen, testimonies released
Through this pen, revelations unsealed
Through this pen a war will errupt
Through this pen love will abide
Through this pen, imaginations corrupt
Through this pen, peace will take sides
Through this pen shadows will cast
Through this pen serenity will render
Through this pen life will outlast
Through this pen death shall surrender
Through this pen I can see all
Through this pen I feel all
Through this pen, light shall rise
Through this pen, darkness shall fall
The possibilities are endless
BEHOLD, I hold the key to greatness
And, when I am on the road to win
What gets me through to VICTORY, is  my pen

Lyric's Melody

She looked into my eyes
I was mesmerized, I was hypnotized
And when she looked at me
I knew that this would be
Something BEAUTIFUL and AMAZING

When I first laid my eyes on you,
Everyone disappeared
It was just us two, alone in the room
Mommy to daughter, my time with you
I closed my eyes and said,
In the back of my mind;
"I'm so glad that you're mine"
Nothing and no one can despair
This everlasting bond we share

And we will be FOREVER, you and me
This will be our lifelong melody

You looked at me and grinned
And I stored that memory deep within
Inside of my heart
Nothing can ever tear us apart
Everyday with you
In my life, that's ALRIGHT
And, waking up next to you
By my side, that's alright

And you will be FOREVER
In my heart, you'll see
You will always be my lifelong melody

The Performer

I walk into the dark auditorium.
I take my place at center stage,
And I glance up as if I am
Standing in a crowded stadium.
It's just me.
Alone in the quiet
Motionless amphitheatre,
But I am secure. Confident.
Ready...as if I am the star in a
Broadway Theatre production.
There are no lights...
Other than those that are
In the back of my mind.
No sound...except the beats
That play on in my mind.
No movement... except the
Rhythms that explode in my mind.

Coming to the stage is the Emcee
To make my entourage introduction.
I release all stress, tension and fear
As I prepare to put on a spectacular production.
A compilation of dramatization and conversations,
Spoken in 3rd degree.
It's an inspirational and motivational
Journey, rotating 360 degrees.
Everybody, clear the stage.

Make room for me.
I am the Entertainer,
The Enlightener,
The Thinker,
The Dancer, The Singer,
The Philosopher,
The Analyzer,
The Performer.
Yes, that's me.

This is my spotlight,
My limelight,
My famelight.
So, Deejay, dim the lights.
This is my moment,
My stardom,
My journey,
My DREAM come true.
Pardon me for being rude,
But it's not about you.
Interrupt my performance,
I will rip you.
Now, please be seated.
That's my cue.

Rich

BLACK.
Black as midnight skies
Filled with starshine.
Black as the dark rain drops
On my window pane,
With the glare from the
Street light on the right.
Black as the soil
On the concrete with
The sun shinning lightly
Over the particles.
Black as a shadow
With a soft glow.
Black as a car's tires
Driving down a long
Stretch of road,
With the sun shinning
Bright and bold.

WHITE.
White as the clouds in the sky...
Then a dark cloud happens to fly by.
White as a pearl
Rolling along a table.
It rolls and rolls until
The light tirns to shadow.
But it doesn't stop there. No.
It keeps rolling until
The shadow becomes a soft glow.
White as the glare in a diamond
When held up towards the sun.
Then the day becomes night.
But you can still see the glare
When held up close to a night light.
White as a cotton ball,
Fresh out the pack.
Yes, it's been used,
But it still bounces back.

BROWN.
Brown.
Brown as dusty wood
That's been polished,
Looking like fine Rosewood.
Yellow as a sunflower
Standing tall in the valley.
Looking at them makes us happy.
Orange as fire.
Flames burning through the heart.
It can be used and abused,
But that's not what tears it apart.

CLEAR.
Clear.
Clear as the wind
Blowing through your hair.
Clear as the water
Quenching your thirst.
Clear as the oxygen
Pumping through your lungs.
Clear as LIFE.
Whatever it means; I don't know.
I just know it comes first.
Clear as knowledge
Pumping through your brain,
Gaining a mile-a-minute,
Expanding with every ounce that it gains.
Clear as the BEAUTY that lies within,
Exploding like a drug in your veins.
Clear as your IMAGINATION.
"To be, or not to be?"
Clear as the LOVE GOD
Has given for you and for me.

Nigger

"NIGGER."Let's take a moment to look at that word
And trace it back to it's roots,
When it started out as a fossil in the brain
And then it grew.
Back when human enslavement was legal.
It's a fascination how that word
Gave us a horrible sensation
When it became everyone's name.
Now it continues to spread like an infestation,
Reaching every generation.
People use it show signs of affection,
When it's clearly a degradation.

Hearing that word every time
Sends me a blast from the past.
Slaves fought for their lives
To become "FREE AT LAST".
They worked hard to learn to read and write
Because they wasn't gaining the
Skills and knowledge from the Whites.
They fought for respect and the right to have a name.
That very "N" word is what kept them bonded
In the game is whips, chains and pains,
And captivity of the brain.

Now, when they gained courage and heart
To attempt to destroy what was
Tearing them apart,
They discarded of that word,
And every other force that kept them
Lured in a world where they cease to exist.

Fast forward through the years and generations
To the present day.
The nightmare still lives.
It hasn't gone away.
We think we are free.
We just survive day-by-day.
And it all comes from the
Mindset we continue to keep.
We refuse to stray away.
Maybe one day we will
Open our eyes and we will see
A brand new day.

My Pen

We are one

He looked into my eyes

And I was mesmerized

He went on to hypnotized

It's just begun

The feeling, oh so strong

We know that we belong inside this moment

He smiled at me

Black eyes glared at me

Burning through my heart, you see

And, when he opened his mouth to me,

Words were spoken so beautifully

His voice is lyrically unique

His moves smooth as a rhythm

As slick as this beat

That's running through my head

And words remain unsaid

As I close my eyes

Envision every line of this song

My mind sees the thoughts

And he is the action

Our most powerful attraction

Lies within the bond we share

Nothing else can compare

MIND

Deep into my mind I struggle to find
The place where I fit in
So I don't get LEFT BEHIND
This world is a maze
And the life we live
Its all part of the craze
As we desperately try to fit in
Deep into theology of everyone's analogy
And focus on economy and spiri-TRUE-ality
According to them, you GOTTA BE...

My mind is the place where I rest my soul
My peace-of-mind, my safe haven
The place I call home
Every time I turn my head
They're leading me on
Trying to get me from safety, into the DANGER ZONE
The world is the scavenger, and I'm the victim
Tring to pull a lot of...ISH from my erectum
They think their succeeding, but I CORRECT them
Try to get over on me
OOPS...I tricked them

My mind is the place where my dignity lies
GOODBYE to all the nights of painful cries
GOODBYE to believing all of the "truthful" lies
Right now, the only thing that's on my mind
Is keeping my sanity in these trying times
And surviving the remaining days of my life
I'm so HIGH in my mind, and everything feels right